I have many many problems. First of all I am a Christian.

About 3 years ago, I was involved in a lesbian relationship. She was violent and abusive. She kidnapped her granddaughter while I was in the car with her which caused me to get a felony offense on my record. She also stole some property and I got a theft charge for it being in my house (misdemeanor) and the one time I defended myself to keep her from killing me(she has even stabbed me before) I got charged with domestic violence (misdemeanor).

This is all in Texas and now I find it impossible to find work, I have literally applied at 100 places in Dallas and NONE will hire me. One hired me then ran my background and fired me, said I was a great worker but cannot keep someone with my extensive criminal background, so sorry.

If this is not enough, I find out she also gave me hepatitis C (through needle sharing I was dumb enough back then to try methamphetamine to lose weight).I also suffer bad arthritis from a car wreck she caused running from police, and from thyroid condition but cannot afford meds and anxiety/depression. I pray but still receive no help !!!!!!!!! Still have no job and no money.

I also lost contact with one of my best friends in the whole world four years ago, I finally was able to contact her husband last night only to find out she died a year ago. I am MAJORLY depressed now, and even contemplating suicide at this point from a combination of all the above things.

To top this of, I am very lonely and have not had a relationship in nearly three years. At one time, I had a crush on her husband, they were having problems in their marriage, he confided a lot in me, I felt some sort of chemistry ( could have been only me feeling it, but thought he might too) at that time, but naturally I backed away as of course he was married to my best friend. I stopped coming around (just in case I in any way might tempt him) but never meant to be separated from them 4 years.

I never even got to say goodbye to her. I feel so guilty for having had a crush on her husband, and more guilty because a part of me is considering seeing if I have any chance with him now that he is a widower for one year. It may be foolish as he is like almost 30 years my senior,has never been with any woman but her,and they were married like 30 years,plus he knows all the bad things I have done in the past, and may also just see me as a friend/daughter figure. He simply said call if I need anything, but I am unsure if I should even call back anytime soon, if I should visit, what I should do from here. I am dying inside from even letting the thought of him as anything but a friend go through my head, feel I am stabbing her in the back even if she is dead.

I need prayer and a friendly ear, advice , anything… PLEASE HELP Thank you God Bless –Lela

Our heavenly Father, we pray now for Lela that your Holy Spirit will build her up and help her to find a good Christian church/fellowship to be involved in that she might find some friends to help her in this time of need. Let her be confident that you love her and only want the best for her, and give her clear direction and inspire her to seek out those her can give her good Christian advice and love.

Lord let her find the job that she so needs at this time and let it be fulfilling for her, let this miracle come by your grace Lord and through Christians that respond to your Spirit. In Jesus name, Amen.                      *Top

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